well this week started a new cycle of training and it seems to be really going well right now im feeling really strong and i feel i am only going up.  im finally starting to feel better about myself i just feel as if ive been drained of things and now im starting to recover from them.  im starting to build myself back up and i have no clue where it will lead me. 

last night at FCA the speaker they had was amazing his name was Ray Mcelroy a former player in thh NFL and he spoke about alot of things that really hit home.  its nice to go there i really feel that i am at peace.  he talked about the three F's FAULTS, FAILURES, AND FEARS and really shed some lights on my thoughts i have been having and the way he presented it was just amazing.

well time to go mow and train!

later people

you are worth it, what do you think?

well quite a bit has happened in the past two days, but i really just dont wanna talk about anything i guess im in one of those moods.  lifting is goin well gettin stronger i just keep telling myself keep your eye on the prize!

still worth it!

well back here at the field which i have my work cut out for me to day cuz after i drovw here to Akron from Ashland, then at 5:00 i gotta close this store and head out to Norwalk another long ass trek to help the parents then back to Ashland for who knows what.

well yesterday was one of best times ive had in a while although that it was at the expense of my pride!  after taking a certaon girl to the bowling alley i was won my first 2 games then it went down hill after that.  i got screwed on the first frame and it didnt give me my spare  and it threw me out of my game and the girl just prceeded to capitalize and kick my ass!  then to help boost my ego we decided to hit up the green room and play some pool.  and of course i get my ass kicked yet again  i mean in the first 3 games we played 8-ball and i either knocked the 8 ball in or something else happened then we moved on to 9-ball and that is a game im better at or so i though and well guess what i get my ass kicked again....all 5 freakin games i dont know i think i was hustled by here!  i think i witnessed a pool shark in the making!

after the ass kickin we went to the AU football game and go figure when i show up they lose the lead and game!grrrrrrrr 

we followed up the rest of the night with a movie and stuff and which turned out to be one of the best nights ive had with this lady even though it came at the expense of my ego.  love you babes! 

one day at a time

well back here at the paintball store sitting here doing homework listening to michigans 55-0 victory of eastern michigan. 

well yesterdays workout went freakin awsome with some pr lifts in the deadlift that i cant be more than extatic about.  I did a single at 545 in the 5 sec eccentric hold at knee height and it felt really strong.  I didn't stop there though I moved onto the reacks and finished some rack deads from the knee with a 575 double form the knees and then finishing out with a 605 single from mid thigh which just felt sick that it was so easy.  600 lb is coming real quick for the Nov 12 meet and i cant weight.  next week starts the new cycle of training and now becky and i move from heavy chains to bands to give us a new unique feel im thinking.  good things are coming i just have to be patient and wait which that seems to be the theme for me and i virtue which i am slowly learning.

well back to the homework and after that back to ashland for a fun filled night of what i don tknow yet we will have to see what goes down.

so for now later dudes! 

well yesterday went pretty well didnt have a class and lifting went real well.  i learned one thing though do not eat a brownie sundae before you train or you are asking for trouble!

the benching went well though i missed mt double on the board bench at 370lb but all in all for the last workout of that cycle it felt really strong and im excited to be moving on.  today is gonna be kick ass cuz all 9 thats right 9 sets of the deadlift are over 500lb isnt that bitchin! 

for anyone lookin for a great movie i suggest fever pitch a great movie for both guys and girls and even better when you have an awsome girl by yourside.  and BTW movie gallery buy2 get2 and as low as 5.99 and some really good selections.

well im off to make breakfast and classes...